[run4peach1]

sorry to hear of your loss. My father passed away a little over 4 months ago, following the same course of your mother. He was 79.

Sometimes I do feel the same way as you; could I have done more, etc. From my experience, I can tell you not to feel that guilt. Trust me, you did all you could. Sometimes the disease just wins out. My Dad got a lot of bad breaks during his disease. Pnuemonia 4 or 5 times. The last one he just couldn't beat. It was very difficult observing him withering away. I know exactly how you feel. My father passed away in the IC unit........I'll never forget the "code blue" call going out over the intercom......the doctors running in.......me right behind them. Deep down, I knew it was for him. He told me the night before. He didn't say anything, but I saw it in his eyes.

Enough about me. The best advice I can give you is to hold onto the good times. I spend a lot of time with my Dad in the 40 years I had him. Lots. Way more than most people ever get to. It's not because I had to, it was because I enjoyed his company. Sounds like you got to spend a lot of good times with your mom. Cherish it. Don't regret what you didn't do, cherish what you did.

If you ever need to talk, feel free to send me something.
As always, everyone involved in these diseases are in my Prayers.