Hi dane,
I guess you try and live 'in the now'. Its hard to do, but otherwise, I would focus on the 'what ifs'. Also try to remember everyone has their issues... I might have had a life threatening disease, BUT I have a beautiful family and a roof over my head. I have just had my 1yearly checkup today and I know I have some uncertainties about it, but I can't change anything! Just have to TRY and be healthy and give my little boy everything I can.
Good luck all! Lisa