Hello Rachlm.
I am so sorry for your loss. I can see that you did everything in your power to care for your Mom. She was so blessed to have you and it sounds like you were blessed to have her. May God bless you with peace and comfort. I understand what it is like to be in excruciating pain, my own children could barely handle hearing my cries. It sound like your your Mom was ready to return home, it also sounded like she had completed her mission here. Please take good care of your of yourself.
By the way, I am also a RachaleM
I am new to the forum was just DX in Nov. 2012 with MDS/MPD-UC, I too got to the point that I thought by the amount of pain that I would soon go home, but I have 4 children that I am still yet raising. In my faith we are taught that we have an appointed time upon this earth and that we don't leave until the appointed time that we are suppose to. I hope that you are comforted.
Rachale M