[PaulS]

Thanks again Baillie for the encouraging words - I am NOT giving up -( who'll make the latkes)? - But this process can be discouraging - and I have a long ways to go. I was never a good distance runner - guess its all about letting go of fear and staying positive no matter what - I won't get through this without always being grateful, humble and positive -which is not always easy - some of the stories one reads on the internet can be very depressing.

Thanks for the thoughts and prayers Cheryl - the link was also very helpful/hopeful.

Tracey - with what you're going through just to get to the transplant I've no business whining - Thanks also Mario for providing some perspective.

I start Retuxin today and get new counts - Screw GVHD - . I'll let you all know how it goes.

Paul