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George,
You said yourself that your family and friends aren't trained grief counselors. You need counseling or other direct personal help from somebody who is trained for this kind of thing. You are feeling hopeless and helpless beyond your coping ability, like the runaway car you describe, so it's time to go to people who can help and not just hope you can put it out of your mind. Please, please go to a professional, call the suicide hotline, see a counselor, and don't give up if you don't get through -- call again or call someone else. As caregivers and patients we can sympathize and understand your fears for your partner and how it can leave you in a panic, but you need experts who know how to help you get through this, just as your partner needs experts to treat him. Please tell us that you will get help right now.
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