Ok,
True confessions time. Now that I have recovered and my doctor's visits have become spaced out to bi-monthly...I'm really going nuts about relapse.
Every time I feel tired..... Every time I get slightly short of breath after climbing up 9 flights of stairs, I think, "Whoa! My hemoglobin could be dropping like a rock."
I know that logically I feel so much better now than I did last summer. But still...
I even have nightmares about being back in the clinic again and getting the bad news.
Man, this disease really messes with your head. It's like a type of PTSD.
Anyone have a suggestion about how I can clear my mind? Yoga? Listening to Enya?
It seems like the only thing that calms me down is a good set of labs at the doctor's office. But, I know that I will have to let go at some point.