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Well..it's funny, we've been almost ignoring the fact that the transplant time is approaching, then all of a sudden here we are. Tomorrow hubby gets admitted and Thursday starts the chemo to totally wipe his system out, then next week the actual transplant - we've been sort of walking around the house, not bored, not restless, not scared - just sort of in a daze. I know deep down that this is exactly what we need to do,but the thought of watching Lee go through this and not being able to do much to help him is hard! I keep telling myself, we are so very lucky - many can't find a match or for reasons can't have a BMT but still the not knowing is nerve wracking. Hubby is doing great, says he is more worried about the chemo side effects then the actual transplant.